No fucking way ...

You don't love me. You say you do, but we both kow you don't. You are unable to love me with my defects and my differences. You prefer you fucking little whore, that stupid poney with false diamond on her tooth. You prefer her lack of culture, her capacity to laugh about anything that's stupid, you prefer her alcoholism. It's okay, I'd get it, I'd semi accept itand I'd decided to take distances towards you, towards her and principaly towards us. But you can't, you have no fucking right to hold it against me. You have no rights to say me I'm not that nice with you. I'm not mean, you are mean making girls expecting love from you that you'll never give their. You are mean to want drive my life as if I was your pet. I'm not a muppet. I have feelings and you knew I have limits. You've choose. Now assume.

Scars in my arms

I'm so fucking furious. He proves me he don't give a fuck. I'm just a fucking fourniture in his fucking life. At this moment I hate him deeply. I'm so pissed off that shit. Anything worth that pain. I don't think I'm perfect, I don't guess I'm very nice everytime but I know I don't deserve that. That's impossible. I'm gonna kill him, at least I would like to right now. I think each humain being deserve a minimum of love and attention. Am I wrong?!

Trahison

I'm not proud about who I am and what I've done ... Actually I'm even ashamed. I feel like a betrayer because I didn't realize how good some people were with me. And I also didn't deserve that goodness.
Today I would like to say to these people thank you, I would like to tell them how much they were fantastic, how much I've loved them or how much I love them for that. The problem is, I can't, because if I do, I'll be more betrayer. If I do, I'll betray the feelings of other people. So what can I do?! I wish I know ...

Paris, je t'aime.

"How could a woman expected to be happy with a man who insists on treating her as if she were a perfectly normal human being" [Oscar Wilde]

Who can believe it? A movie speaking about love, explain to you what is deeply wrong in your own love story.

Eros et Thanatos

I don't know if I have done the worst mistake of my life by leaving a guy who loved me. I've loved him before all that shit, but that fucking shit happened and I couldn't trust him anymore. But now I'm not sure to be loved, I mean, truly loved by anyone. I'm kinda lost. I'm not sure to know what I want anymore ...

I am the disappointment child of the humanity ...

I deeply hate people. I can like or love a person, but I definitely hate people. And people give it back to me perfectly. 

When I was a little girl, I had no friend at school. Kids didn't like me because my mom used to choose unconventional clothings for me and because  I was the best in my class.

Later, in mid-school, I had no more friends. I hated people more than then hated me. 

In high-school, I had a small group of friends with who I shared a lot of my life. 

Between my 10 years and my 18 years, I lived with my father, who didn't and doesn't care about me. He threw me out of my home, because of his new fucking girlfriend.

I was in a relationship with a guy who truly and deeply loved me. Once he told me he didn't love me anymore. I realised he makes mistakes when he was travelling without me. Almost naked with a teenage girl. I left him, he had broke my heart.

Now I'm in a relationship with a guy who says he loves me, but seems not to do.

I never had a lot of friend, actually the girls and guys I know since a long time are just like me. 

Except the people I care, everyone is a fucking jerk.

I am the disappointed child of the humanity.