Scars in my arms

I'm so fucking furious. He proves me he don't give a fuck. I'm just a fucking fourniture in his fucking life. At this moment I hate him deeply. I'm so pissed off that shit. Anything worth that pain. I don't think I'm perfect, I don't guess I'm very nice everytime but I know I don't deserve that. That's impossible. I'm gonna kill him, at least I would like to right now. I think each humain being deserve a minimum of love and attention. Am I wrong?!

Trahison

I'm not proud about who I am and what I've done ... Actually I'm even ashamed. I feel like a betrayer because I didn't realize how good some people were with me. And I also didn't deserve that goodness.
Today I would like to say to these people thank you, I would like to tell them how much they were fantastic, how much I've loved them or how much I love them for that. The problem is, I can't, because if I do, I'll be more betrayer. If I do, I'll betray the feelings of other people. So what can I do?! I wish I know ...

Paris, je t'aime.

"How could a woman expected to be happy with a man who insists on treating her as if she were a perfectly normal human being" [Oscar Wilde]

Who can believe it? A movie speaking about love, explain to you what is deeply wrong in your own love story.

Eros et Thanatos

I don't know if I have done the worst mistake of my life by leaving a guy who loved me. I've loved him before all that shit, but that fucking shit happened and I couldn't trust him anymore. But now I'm not sure to be loved, I mean, truly loved by anyone. I'm kinda lost. I'm not sure to know what I want anymore ...

I am the disappointment child of the humanity ...

I deeply hate people. I can like or love a person, but I definitely hate people. And people give it back to me perfectly. 

When I was a little girl, I had no friend at school. Kids didn't like me because my mom used to choose unconventional clothings for me and because  I was the best in my class.

Later, in mid-school, I had no more friends. I hated people more than then hated me. 

In high-school, I had a small group of friends with who I shared a lot of my life. 

Between my 10 years and my 18 years, I lived with my father, who didn't and doesn't care about me. He threw me out of my home, because of his new fucking girlfriend.

I was in a relationship with a guy who truly and deeply loved me. Once he told me he didn't love me anymore. I realised he makes mistakes when he was travelling without me. Almost naked with a teenage girl. I left him, he had broke my heart.

Now I'm in a relationship with a guy who says he loves me, but seems not to do.

I never had a lot of friend, actually the girls and guys I know since a long time are just like me. 

Except the people I care, everyone is a fucking jerk.

I am the disappointed child of the humanity.